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Troye Sivan on the dark side of dating as a gay teen

"I just did stuff that a 17-year-old boy shouldn’t really have to do."

2018-04-26

After bursting onto the music scene with his 2015 debut Blue Neighbourhood, Troye Sivan is set to cement his position among pop's LGBT A-list with the release of his eagerly-anticipated follow-up record this summer.

The moody, grimy video for comeback single 'My My My!' showcased the grown-up new sound the 22-year-old Aussie star is set to explore on his forthcoming material, but as Troye reveals in Attitude's new-look June issue - available to download and in shops now - growing up fast was something he was all-too familiar with even before his burgeoning pop career took off.

Opening up about life as a young gay teen growing up in Perth, Troye - who came out publicly on YouTube in 2013 at the age of 18 - sheds light on the darker side of trying to find connections as an isolated LGBT adolescent.

"All my friends were hooking-up with random people at parties, and I just felt so left behind because I didn’t know gay people, I didn’t know where to meet gay people," the 'Wild' singer says.

 

Troye Sivanshot by Damon Baker for Attitude's June issue 

"I didn’t really want to venture out by myself and so I just did stuff that a 17-year-old boy shouldn’t really have to do.

"I managed to get a fake ID and then I got Grindr on my phone and started to try to meet people who were like me, but you sort of are forced a little bit into these hyper-sexualised environments, and even though that’s awesome when you’re 17… I didn’t know what else to do."

Casting his mind back to the encounters he had with "older" men during his teens, Troye recalls: "My heart must have been going a million miles an hour. I don’t remember specifically but, because I was always so small, I was so scared to meet up with people because I was like, ‘I’m going to get killed, I’m going to get murdered by someone.’

"When I see photos of myself, from when I was that age, and I think of the guys that I was meeting up with and talking to, I think: ‘Wow, I looked really, really young.’

Photography: Damon Baker

"[It makes me feel] Kind of a little bit creeped-out, but at the same time I really don’t have any regrets. Maybe I wasn’t ever truly scared, just really uncomfortable."

He continues: "There's actually a song about it on the album called '17'... Originally the chorus of the song was 'Here he comes / like he just walked out of a dream / doesn't care that you're 17'. And I was like 'uh, that sounds a bit predatory', and maybe it was a little bit.

"That's what I mean, it's like, I'm not looking back at those experiences in a negative or a positive light".

Read Troye's full interview in Attitude's new-look June issue, which also comes with a second cover featuring Sir Ian McKellen. Buy now and take advantage of our best-ever subscription offers: 3 issues for £3 in print, 13 issues for £19.99 to download to any device.