Married Christian rock star Trey Pearson comes out as gay

US Christian rock singer Trey Pearson has come out after “trying not to be gay for more than 20 years.”

The Everyday Sunday frontman wrote in a moving letter to fans that he felt: “a weight I have been carrying my whole life has been lifted, and I have never felt such freedom.”

Pearson, 35, is currently married to a woman with whom he shares two young children.

In the letter, published in Ohio-based (614) Magazine, he wrote that his wife has been a “supportive, understanding, loving and gracious person” in light of the news, and that the pair wish to co-parent while remaining friends.

He added: “I am never going to be able to change how I am, and no matter how healthy our relationship becomes, it’s never going to change what I know deep down: that I am gay.

“If I keep trying to push this down it will end up hurting her even more.”

The rockstar’s family have been equally supportive: “My dad just showed up at my door and hugged me for a long time, which I really needed,” he said.

Trey Pearson on the June 2016 cover of (614) Magazine. Photo courtesy of (614) Magazine

Everyday Sunday has enjoyed strong commercial success in the US, forming in 1997 and breaking into the Billboard Top 200 in 2009 with Best Night of Our Lives.

According to the Religion News Service, there is a chance Pearson’s coming out could hurt his commercial success, especially with the band’s latest studio album due this autumn.

Columnist Jonathan Merritt wrote: “Several other Christian musicians who came out as gay — Ray Boltz, Anthony Williams, Jennifer Knapp, Vicky Beeching — have seldom played on Christian radio stations since acknowledging their sexuality.”

In an interview with The Washington Post, Pearson addressed this issue: “I think it’s changing. I think a lot of these younger people that are part of the industry want to have the conversation,” he said. “Hopefully I can be a part of making that difference.”

He added that coming out has not affected his faith, and said: “There is absolutely no conflict with accepting who I am and following Jesus,” he said. “God wants me to be healthy, authentic, whole, integrated and my truest self.”

Read Pearson’s full letter here:

To my fans and friends:

Most of us reach at least one pivotal moment in our lives that better defines who we are.

These last several months have been the hardest – but have also ended up being the most freeing months — of my life.

To make an extremely long story short, I have come to be able to admit to myself, and to my family, that I am gay.

I grew up in a very conservative Christian home where I was taught that my sexual orientation was a matter of choice, and had put all my faith into that. I had never before admitted to myself that I was gay, let alone to anyone else. I never wanted to be gay. I was scared of what God would think and what all of these people I loved would think about me; so it never was an option for me. I have been suppressing these attractions and feelings since adolescence. I’ve tried my whole life to be straight. I married a girl, and I even have two beautiful little kids. My daughter, Liv, is six and my son, Beckham, is two.

I had always romanticized the idea of falling in love with a woman; and having a family had always been my dream. In many ways, that dream has come true. But I have also come to realize a lot of time has passed in my life pushing away, blocking out and not dealing with real feelings going on inside of me. I have tried not to be gay for more than 20 years of my life. I found so much comfort as a teen in 1 Samuel 18-20 and the intimacy of Jonathan and David. I thought and hoped that such male intimacy could fulfill that void I felt in my desire for male companionship. I always thought if I could find these intimate friendships, then that would be enough.

Then I thought everything would come naturally on my wedding night. I honestly had never even made out with a girl before I got married. Of course, it felt anything but natural for me. Trying not to be gay, has only led to a desire for intimacy in friendships which pushed friends away, and it has resulted in a marriage where I couldn’t love or satisfy my wife in a way that she needed. Still, I tried to convince myself that this was what God wanted and that this would work. I thought all of those other feelings would stay away if I could just do this right.

When Lauren and I got married, I committed to loving her to the best of my ability, and I had the full intention of spending the rest of my life with her. Despite our best efforts, however, I have come to accept that there is nothing that is going to change who I am.

I have intensely mixed feelings about the changes that have resulted in my life. While I regret the way I was taught to handle this growing up, how much it has hurt me and the unintentional pain I have brought Lauren, I wouldn’t have the friendship I now have with her, and we wouldn’t have our two amazing, beautiful children. But if I keep trying to push this down it will end up hurting her even more.

I am never going to be able to change how I am, and no matter how healthy our relationship becomes, it’s never going to change what I know deep down: that I am gay. Lauren has been the most supportive, understanding, loving and gracious person I could ever ask for, as I have come to face this. And now I am trying to figure out how to co-parent while being her friend, and how to raise our children.

I have progressed so much in my faith over these last several years. I think I needed to be able to affirm other gay people before I could ever accept it for myself. Likewise, I couldn’t expect others to accept me how I am until I could come to terms with it first.

I know I have a long way to go. But if this honesty with myself about who I am, and who I was made by God to be, doesn’t constitute as the peace that passes all understanding, then I don’t know what does. It is like this weight I have been carrying my whole life has been lifted from me, and I have never felt such freedom.

In sharing this publicly I’m taking another step into health and wholeness by accepting myself, and every part of me. It’s not only an idea for me that I’m gay; It’s my life. This is me being authentic and real with myself and other people. This is a part of who I am.

I hope people will hear my heart, and that I will still be loved. I’m still the same guy, with the same heart, who wants to love God and love people with everything I have. This is a part of me I have come to be able to accept, and now it is a part of me that you know as well. I trust God to help love do the rest.

– Trey

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